其实以前他是临记乐队的主唱，以前比现在更有型。后来演电影去了，功夫片。

北京的天气还真照顾我，我一去就停了，也没那么冷了，我一走就下了，一定看我穿的不够多。

同样是动车，同样600多公里的距离，向北开可以3个小时，向南开却还是5个多小时，跟T用一样的时间，而且还那么贵。为什么？

如果没有身份证，又忘记密码就真的没有办法补办sim卡吗？

命运把我像拖布一样拖的筋疲力尽。yl说我似乎永远不会平淡。我是多么想静静地生活。

感谢sbl和wfr的两次援助使得我能够继续。

（突然发现zz也下雪了）

big deal not succeed .cause  we cant solve the problem about the invoice . that’s  a big number .

beijing’s weather was really kind to me ,snow stopped when i arrived ,and begin when i left .it must knew that i didnt wear much .

they are same MC car ,and  same distance, the one go to north will use 3 hours ,but the one go to south will need more than 5 hours .,use the same time with T ,and such expensive ,why?

if dont have ID card and pass word ,do i really cant make a copy sim card?

the fate drag me as a mop,made me exhausted .YL said that seems i never be peace,it’s mean good and bad . but i really want to peace to live.

thanks for WFR and SBL’s support let me continue  .

my lord dont let me down ,dont let me hopeless ,dont let me kill myself .

freelion

hi my lord and guys , god damn it !!! you know what happened in these days ?I guess my lord didnt with me together these days,cause  other son of bitch stolen my bag,and you know what?my wallet my psp my cards pt’s cell phone and my fxxking cashes inside ,a part is FR’s.yeah i have nothing now .everything disappear suddenly .I know that’s not a joke .that’s fxxking truth.but i am not sad as before,i dont know why ,just want continue .this is shit enough !!! now i only can ask help from friends,thanks for they can give me a help ,lend me money  ,say thanks already not enough to express my emotion .

that night ,we just had supper in Gui street .there has a bunch people ,looks like a colleagues of a company.they so fxxking noisy.most reason is from them  cause the noise block me to heard what my friend said,so i just focus on the words what he said.and I neglect my bag ,on that time a fxxking damn man came in ,and sat behind me ,he said nothing ,just sat there,i am wonder a little bit,but didnt care ,thought maybe he will take the meal away ,i just continue to chat .and later ,he gone and hiding my bag in the clothes. god damn it ,mother fxxker ,son of bitch .if i saw he touch my bag ,i must kill him use the bottle of beer ,i must kill him.sorry for my violent ,cuase too many hate inside me ,i hate thief very much ever and for ever.

i called police after i find out my bag disappeared,they made  it a case in police office ,i assisted polices make a details record .

now i only wait for the message from them ,but you know the hope such tiny.

these days i lost again .but i know what i should to do  .

fxxk u the thief !

freelion

今天看到陈琳妈的公开信。

有几句话听的我很疼。如下：

我开始真正感觉到永远失去了这个孩子！

傻孩子，多疼啊，难道比活着的疼会轻一些吗？

其实我也曾站在窗口望着下面，想，得需要多大得绝望能把我推下去。。。

嘿 你猜怎么着？北京的雪是人工降雪。

今天没有跟外界联系。但心里有股阴风想刀片一样唰唰地片向我的心。一定是被刺激了，要不怎么想立刻离开呢？要不怎么会说狠话刺激别人呢？

我特意去查了神经质的诠释。如下 ：

神经质症是在神经质性格基础上产生的。在某种特定条件下，任何人都可能发生神经质症症状。如第一次在众人面前讲话感到紧张而不知所措；听到有人谈论艾滋病、癌症就感到非常可怕；见到邻居被窃，自己变得格外小心等。对于性格健全的人，上述反应仅是短暂的，一过性的。（我是正常人）

但是下面的有点像我，难道我是神经质患者？我完了

而神经质性格的人，在面临心理困难时，精神上会出现强烈的不安，并由此导致错误的认识，把健康人都有的不安和不适感等心身、生理变化，误认为病态或异常。患者本人高度注意这些“病态或异常”，并企图排除之。但这些不安和不适的特点是越注意它，越努力想排除它，反而会表现得越严重，结果形成了注意与病觉的恶性循环，致使症状加重。病人陷于与症状苦战苦斗的精神冲突状态中，感到非常痛苦。病人想排除”病态或异常”的欲望越强烈，症状反而越加重。

后来我发现我不是 如下

这种症状的关键在于以自我为中心，过分自信，虚荣心强，狂热而冷酷。

一般症状：缺乏理性，责任心淡薄。有浪费癖，即使借钱也要满足自己的欲望。无视社会习俗，缺乏同情心，甚至说谎。

最近深刻地感受到了多年熬夜对身体造成的伤害，为了身体一定要按时睡觉，我决定以后不再熬夜了，不再当猫头鹰了，不再跟南北极较劲了。

today pt cried very very sad .my fault .

正哈哈大笑呢，一个大嘴巴抽过去的速度，天，冷了下来。我们都要照顾好自己的小命。

这一天下来没有什么实质性的发展，我喜欢这样，过一个礼拜就跟一天似的。哪也不想去。（此刻我又听到那两个互相哀鸣的鸡了）本来打算邀请摇篮一起演29号的演出，但是不巧他有别的演出。

我的被套掉色把我染成红色。挺好玩，自己在床上坐着傻笑了好一会。

没什么更新的事被落实。都在天上飘着呢。

今天给一个国外的家驹的粉丝聊天，我们都想他了，所以我介绍电影《beyond日记－末欺少年穷》我们一同怀念了一下家驹。

北京下雪了 ，我想念北京！

The weather cold down so quick .we should take care our weak life .

today nothing happened ,i like it ,a week just like a day .dont need to go everywhere .(just now i heard that two chicks scream again .) actually i plan invite Yao Lan perform with me for the show on  29th,but he has another show need to do .

my cover dyed me to red ,that’s funny.

no more things be confirmed ,all flying in the sky .

today chat with ka kui’s fun from europe ,we were all miss him ,so i introduce movie <beyond dairy> ，commemorated him together .

beijing was snow.i miss beijing!

today my aunt called me and told me that my dad had a big problem and hope me clam down.

wowwowwow，看起来我的博客复活了，我曾经希望做这个网站是为了乐队推广，可现在我觉得我应该为我自己做点什么了。我一定要记录每天的生活，在老了以后回味，因为我曾深刻地发现，我8年前写的日记是如此的陌生。所以为了防止忘了我自己，得记录下来那些不经意。就像人们曾优美得经过我，我可以不记得他们得名字，但是我一定要记住他们得姿态。我想给过去得人们一个拥抱，因为无论是快乐还是痛苦，他们帮助我构建了我的生活。

今天大太阳，后来风也大了起来。昨晚又没睡好。下午去27溜达几圈。有些人很有成果。

wowwowwow,my website looks like revive .I ever wanna promote my band’s music,but now I think I should do something for myself.I must record my everyday ,remember it when I very old .cause I find out that my old diary was very strange to me. so in case i forget myself ,I have to record my everyday my tiny thing.it just like people through me ,I cant remember their name ,but I must how they though my life .I really want to give a big hug to people who through my life,cause  whatever happy or pain ,they constructed my life .

today had big sun sometimes you can felt a little hot ,later wind begin stronger and stronger ,in night ,already cold .this afternoon I walked around 27,some people bought some clothes ,not me .

peace

freelion

终于知道今天让pt泪流满面的歌的名字了，就是专辑《18》里面的18，听moby的这张专辑很久了，因为导到电脑里，没有名字都是音轨一音轨二之类的，今天终于知道了。这是一首没唱的歌，但是仍感受到了很多，每个音符都是歌词。moby一直都很忙，我有时会猜想他现在在干什么，完全是出于好奇心。他很会享受生活。有时关注他们的博客，是件很有趣的事。

今天是丰富的一天，一天没出屋，，晚上跟pt去吃了火锅，料不错，有点贵。

这个城市今天有雨，可能跟我家乡那拨雨是老乡。晚上回来上网看到陈琳死了的消息，就转身为生活叹了口气 。人们想要的东西都很迥异。才知道她跟沈永阁离婚了，很多年前我还曾跟他们的竹书唱片尝试谈合作。如今都物是人非了。谁也猜不到未来 。fr说我们也去跳楼吧， 我说，疼，还是跳水吧。

原计划交手机费，给音总扫描身份证，都没实施。大生意还没信呢，像这么大的生意，对于我这样的人来说简直有点太梦幻了。我生命里最让我讨厌的就是可能性太多，烦。

我期待明天！

finnally I know the song’s name which one made PT cry ,just call 18 in album <18> of Moby .I listen this album long time already but still dont know all songs’ name. cause I imported them into my computer without name .today I finally know ,this song without vocal but I still can got lots of feeling, every note is lyrics. Moby always keep busy ,I jealous him .lol just joke man .sometimes I had think what dose he doing right now .only wondering ,yeah I am his fun .he know how to enjoy life very well .sometimes i will pay attention on his blog.that’s interesting .

today is a wonderful  day ,even though I didnt go out ,eat hot pot with PT in the night ,that’s delicious ! but a little expensive .

this city had rain today ,maybe it  from the same place with the rain in my hometown.I got a bad news when I got on internet.the famous singer Chen Lin dropped from the building and died .I turn back and sigh for life.people wanna different thing. until now I know she devoice with S .long time ago ,I tried to cooperate with their music company ,nobody know future .FR said  let’s jump down form the top of building ,I said PAINFUL ,let’s jump into the water .

today I planed to pay my mobile fee and scan my ID ,but nothing happened .the big deal still no news ,this kind of deal is a dream for me. too many possibles is which one i hate in my life .

I looking forward tomorrow .