ooh today still fucking bored,you know ,in the strange city ,you only can stay in the fucking room if you dont have a job.i dont know where to go ,so internet is my world ,so i just go everywhere per internet .i try to find every way to earn ,but life still always kidding me .u know ,my fucking future is not here ,not there ,i still only can guess ,i guess it at the very far place ,at another land .fuck,i still wait message from there, i pray everything goes well ,cause i already no other ,choice ,if lord must say i have choice ,i guess ,just become a monk .
oh my friend in tokyo she said that there is warm ,i said here warm too .that;s fucking crazy she can send message to my mobile ,her number is from europe .who can tell me how much money chinese mobile will charge me when i receive the message from tokyo .
fucking shit,i already fucking poor .who can save me ?where is the fucking super women /?
now almost morning ,i still watching the movie called Control ,it’s about Joy division band ,i feel fucking sad .just now Ian suicided! his wife into the room , heard a scream .yeah he died .she is crying and scream :anyone can help …
Ian died in 1980 ,and then in the 1981 i born ,i didnt have chance to felt that we are live in the same world in the same time .
you know sometime i tried to imagined what is bill joe doing right now ,or liam .
